Won’t kill my darlings

The decay begins already at birth. Follow you as a shadow all the way. It’s impossible to defend oneself, even though all measures are taken. Decay. Let it be. Belief and attempts to master it, lead to paranoid thoughts and manic behavior. Embrace the decay. The perfect is not for real, does not exist at any level, a transcendent illusion. Decay as part of a pulsating process, without an ending point. The time span can vary, from seconds to eons. Constantly ongoing, circulating, obvious or invisible. Follow the decay, become its friend. The body, things, the thoughts, everything is affected. Parts in a long process of transformation. Decay can be distracted, for a while, maybe stop, only to pick up speed when the gaze is turned in another direction.

The vision can never be fully translated. It never becomes completely clear, just a hint, like a faint scent, a snapshot, which can suddenly be lost, dissolve. Other things come forward in the absence, new threads and offshoots take place, want to be formulated. The affect, the body’s reaction based on a discovery visual, sometimes tactile is the engine. The zigzagging between materials, methods and thoughts, which constantly generates new opportunities. Let the notion of ”the finished” hang loose, unarticulated, rippling.

Embraced by the deep diversity of the forest, colors, lights, structures, smells and a million details. Everything can fall back like a fund, merge to a surface. Sometimes details stand out. To walk the same path again and again, and every time different things make themselves known. A starting point. Create the fund, with the richness of detail. Not everything can be taken in, the gaze finds what strikes. There and then. Distance and detail.

Work of grief I, Necklace, textile, papier marché

Work of grief VI, Necklace, glas bead embrodery, cupper, textile

Work of grief, necklace, textile

Work of grief II, pendant, glas bead embrodery, silver, steel

Work of grief VII, necklace, glas bead embrodery, silver, textile cord

Work of grief V, necklace, glad bead embrodery, textile cord, silver, steel